its addictive to hear u calling me "kor"... my heart would just melt away like butter on a hot pan... yeah... its my soft spot...

i must keep my composure though. stay calm stay calm.

im scared that this is just an illusion.
maybe, maybe, tml i wake up, i would not hear from u again, because your heart has already changed.

young hearts tend to be changeable.
they are like opals, that shines different lights when exposed to a spectrum of lights.
they go with so-called "feelings". and feeling is a unstable object.
today, i feel good, tml, i may not.
so u see, "feeling" is not a reliable entity.
today, u feel pleasant with me, tml will u still?
i feel insecured banking my hope on something that is so impetuous.
is it real of what u feel towards me? or isit just an impulse, that would fade off the next minute?

i reminded myself for the umpteenth time that i should trust you in guilt of my sceptism. it didnt help. i guess the problem lies in me.

there will always be other guys around u, eyeing hungrily on u, ever ready to pamper u with romance whenever they see a chance to get near u when u feel down or depressed. would u be firm enough to resist the temptations?

i suddenly feel so old... maybe i think too much.