when was the last time i posted something here?
haha...

oh well, life is going on as it is. and im still alive!!!

currently im seeing someone. we just got started. we are not together, just dating.
its a beautiful story.

=)

and i gtg now.

The Anti-Globalization Breakfast Club: Manifesto Of A Peaceful Revolution.
Impostor
The Trophy Kids Grow up

i went to bishan library to borrow these 3 books. "the anti-globalization breakfast club" is a book i would strongly recommend to everyone.

that is plain bullshit. i couldnt be bothered to come up with a proper heading for this post because im simply too fucking lazy to think of any for such a trivial come-back-entry.

i have been on and off blogging. when i have the mood, i will randomly post something to refresh my blog.

im in aslc now, after 2 months in bslc, only 1 more month away from getting my 3rd sergeant rank. as a commander-to-be, i totally dont feel that im qualified to be one. im not ready for it. with great power comes great responsibilities. i dont think im ready for that kind of weight over my shoulders. im not ready to lead my men of 6. i cant even take good care of myself, and im supposed to handle 6, or 12 if i end up in tekong? 3rd sergeant ong. HOHOHO. sounds great, but not the amount of work that comes with it. maybe its not that im not capable of doing it, rather that im just reluctant. i guess so. nonchalent.

went out with bwg today to celebrate my birthday. brothers!!!

im already 20. no longer a teen. i feel old, i am.

as my msn nick says: misinterpretations. i have missed out and screwed up so many things in my life due to misinterpretations.

right now im missing someone. i will not take any action, i will just continue to miss this special someone. im silly, let me be.

this is the end of this entry. till my next entry, and to end it...

today im proud of sg, tml sg will be proud of me.

i have temper too.

it's winter in China now. the weather is so damn cold. today's temperature is 10 degree celsius. freezing cold!!! my fingers are getting numb due to the coldness. the air here is very hazy due to the under-regulated air pollution from nearby factories.

the weather here is dry, really dry. my hand and face skin have cracked as a result exposure to the coldness and dryness. lucky that i have brought a stick of lip mosturiser here which saved my lips. my nose is bleeding too. every breath i take in sends a chill down my nostril to my air pipe into my lungs.

i miss my dear. we have been separated since my departure. i cant wait for our reunion when i return to singapore.

gone... for 2 weeks.

i think im placing too much hope into this relationship. i have been trying all that i could to keep my love one, by my side, who doesnt seem interested to settle down with me. i have always been having this fear that this is all just a game to the one hosting it. im all prepared to lose you anytime. it is just a question of when you are going to initiate a break up, most probably after i come back from my vacation trip?

i could simply cancel my trip in order to salvage our relationship, you are definitely more important to me than my relatives and the money loss from the cancellation of the air tickets. but frankly speaking, what can i do now? occupy you time so that i could postpone our break up? there is nothing i can do to keep a heart that has no place for me.

it feels lousy being an abandoned toy. am i one? why ain't you satisfied with me? im willing to give you everything i have. but you desire beyond that. im just not good enough for you.

im not good enough for you.
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maybe i tried too hard. everybody should keep their own secrets. good that i havnt completely revealed mine.

let me declare this blog dead for some time. due to some personal problems, im too vexed to sort out my thoughts and pen them down in an articulate manner.

i cant sing, i cant speak proper english, and im not attractive.