Guess what i had for breakfast this morning?

alright alright...

i screwed up my econs paper...
i admit that i didnt study much for it.

i had expected PED(price elasticity of demand) to come out since the teachers focused a lot on it earlier... but it turn out that PES(price elasticity of supply) was the topic focus.

price elasticity of supply refers to the responsiveness of quantity supplied to a price change. this was the only thing i could come out with at the point of exam. fuck it!!!

i could not recall any of the factors that stimulates the PED... so i just bullshit on the answer script...

im prepared for the worst to come, a U grade most probably. shamed!!!

alright, tomorro is my last day of exams, with Computing and Physics in the list.
im giving up on computing. it sucks to the core... so much to memorise, i have a pea brain, not much space for boring computing theories...

lets work hard for my last sprint for Physics tomorro.

i dont know why, but i suddenly missed Qin Feng lately.
it just came very abruptly she appeared in my conciousness and i keep thinking of her and remembering the days we were together back then.
she is a very special person to me. she is understanding, caring, self-independent...
i just cant relieve myself for choosing to let her go...

im still not sure why we broke up... It was during my sec 4 and i was busy preparing for my o'lvl and she was facing n'lvl.
we used to go to library to study together, almost everyday.
Anderson sec library was a rather quiet place, because for some unknown reasons Andersonians do not visit the library frequently.
so Qin feng and i became to main regulars of the library.
alomost everyday u can find the 2 of us taking a table in the corner to study together.

i still remember uncle George, the library tenant.
he is a kind and hospitable person. he welcome all students to come to library to study and he ordered biscuits for us.
the almond seeds biscuits were the favorite choice to Qin Feng and i.

and things were going fine... and so on... and we were still doing fine...

until when the exams were less than in a month...
we kinda suddenly stop being together...
she hanged around with her usual cliques, and i with mine...
we still see each other everyday... but we just chat with each ther less and less...
and then one day we popped the question... "maybe its better for us to be just friends?"

i used to think that maybe its because we got together too often, that we were uninteresting in each others anymore... or was it that we both dont really have each other in heart... there was someone else i truely loved, though i did liked her then.
whatever the reason... we broke up...

i dont love her, but i just miss her now...

my mid-year exams have begun.
i have a lot of work to rush as i had slacked throughput the holiday period.

i watched 孽子 and 十七岁的天空 in the past 2 days. Both are excellent works. they evoked ample emotions and immense empathy in me for the characters in the shows.

i have watched half of 孽子. the drama is very moving. there are many others of our age undergoing the same plights he experienced. many chose anynomy to represent themselves. there is no law, order, identity, respect, rights, nor trust for the people in that world. forsaken by gods of all religions, they struggle their way through time in the denial of the rest of the world. they can only hide in anonomy.

十七岁的天空 is a very inspiring movie. i felt so motivated and once again start to pick up some trust in love after watching the movie. i lost hope in innocent love after some setbacks in the past. it was relieving to see the 2 main characters get together in the lead of their innocent love. im so envious of them. i have yet to meet a right partner in my life. i miss the impulse of being in love...

Dean arranged another bwg gathering next wed. and im being compelled to make my presence for this meeting because i pangseh them for the last one. we are going to watch Ocean's 13. what is this movie? i dont know anything about it.

im beginning to fall in love with economics. thats totally insane. i hated economics cause i failed the subject throughout last year. but things took a complete turn dis time round. i managed to top the class in the 1st class test and that somewhat grew pride in me in economics. it is actually not a very difficult subject. the quests are very much like social studies. just answer the questions in the fix format and apply the skills accordingly, a moderate mark is within reach. im gonna work on it.

im now watching movies online. The pace internet movies is uploading is incredible. some movies are already found online way before they reach singapore. pardon me for being such a country punkim, but i nv realise this until recently.

Pirates of the Carabean 3
Shrek 3

Have fun watching ^^