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september holiday is coming ^0^

i have already made up my mind upon taking up swimming during this short holiday period.

i have always wanted to learn swimming, but due to many this-and-that reasons and excuses, i have procrastinated till today.
but as my age grows older and older, the pressure to learn swimming compounds up and forms an immense urge within me to settle the issue asap.



im gonna learn swimming within that 1 short week.

first, im gonna start by looking for someone to teach me swimming. else, i will enroll myself into any swimming class together with thelittle kids... awww... dats gonna be damn embarrasing, but if thats the resort, i will push for it.

swim swim swim, and lots of sun-tan to get myself that hunky bronze tone... lol just joking. ya, i will swim freely by the end of the holiday period, i swear!!!

love stories are toxic. it make people fantasise beyond reality.

meeting the destined love is like striking lottery. not anyone can seize happiness, only the few lucky ones. the chance is slim, like one in a million.

there is always a need to keep the feets to the ground. dont let ur fantasies inflate ur desires

we are born the way we are, with no intersection between our lives.
how i wish u could feel my heartache.

i wanna hold u tight in my arms, so u can feel my heartbeats which pulsates plainly morbidity.
im falling into a state of grave depression.
i can find solace in friendship, but the my smiles are superficial and desolate.
there is some emptiness that calls to be filled.

hey u, u r wanted

in wonderland, i hunt a heart
in reality, i hide a heart.
what an irony

he is an excellent singer, my second favorite male artist next to jay chou.
he is 张敬轩 Hins Cheung.

for those of you who cannot recall who he is, try to recall the songs "my way" and "断点". yes!!! he penned and sang these two catchy melodies which constitutes to the two highest hit rate orders in our k-box song lists.
this day we shall commemorate the release of his newest album 酷爱.


its a pity that its a cantonese album, for i cannot literate well in which.
"酷爱" is a very R&B style song, very suitable to listen to when u r like... mugging in the school library...
"遙吻" is a typical love song about a lover lamenting his promising love for his partner... i particularly like its tunes... its so 张敬轩 style, kinda reminds me of "my way" and "断点".
"放榜" is very hip-hop styled. quite a pleasant surprise from Hins, since its not something of his usual selection.

overall, i give this album a B+!!! 张敬轩 rox!!!
to show my appreciation of his efforts to present to us such a brilliant album so as to reward his fans for their support, i have revised my rotten song list and bring up some of his much remembered hits. enjoy.

u had unintentionally seduced me

i know that it was just a playful act, but it did moved me.
for a moment i dwelled in the fantasy of our possibilities.
but my consciousness immediately regain control and reminded me that we are an impossible.

im so afraid to let u know that im fond of u
but being good friends, i have no reason to shun ur friendly approach
u do not know that ur indeliberation stirs my heartbeats

u r charming to me.
but i have a life to live, and we are best being friends
i will move on from u

i had wanted to go off to bed after making that previous resenting post towards our mr almighty.

but i decided that i should record down my outing with my dearest bwc last thursday before it fades in my sea of memories. i admit that i have poor memory span.

it was a half school day, so i did went to school in the morning, much reluctantly. and i missed the bus, so i took a cab, and cost me a bomb, $9. fuck la...

the asssembly was a waste of time, i feel almost detached from the speech.

the celebration was boring too, i was asleep most of the time, as i had not closed my eyes since the previous night from braving through the whole night in my dota wonderland.

but the appearance of Javin They and Chen Ken Bai ( from campus superstar 2 and project superstar 2 ) was a surprise to me. the duet was fabulous. and Ken Bai sang much better than Javin haha. im so damn jealous of their vocal talent, i would want to be able to sing as well as them. i love to sing, but im in-apt.

nyjc ended much earlier than all other jcs, so i need to find activities to fill my free-time.

i went to eat my lunch with Boulder, Wan Xin, Sam and Agnes at the nearby coffee shop. before we began our meal, Wan Xin had accidentally mudge some chiili source on her face, and it cause irritation to her "tender" skin... haha so her face turned all red and she couldnt stop tearing haha... poor girl

after lunch, we went back to school, to have our physics consultation with the new physic teacher *forgot her name*.
damn it la... "Work, Energy and Power" is such a difficult topic. i cant understand a single shit.
i need to work harder for physics.

after that i went to cineplex to meet bwc.
( nowadays, almost all the outings are for bwc, actually i wuld like to have an outing for bwg only haha, guys outing )
we went to the lan shop in cineplex before the movie. haha more dota. Zhi Kai, Jia Hao and i were sentinel, Dean teamed up with Wei De and Zhi Wen in scourge. haha we pawned them!!!

after that we entered cinema hall when the movie begins.
Jay ROX la... shuai, talented, sings well, humorous... so idol can....
Gui Lun Mei also not bad la... quite cute...
But personally i think the girl who play Qin Yi is prettier, she is like the typical asian beau... i like her silky long hair... haha she is so chio

and Jia Hao that kuku boy, he went to sit with Ying Chen at the corner, afar from the us, and enjoying their private moments. jian se wan you!!!

after we exited the cinema, i realised that my old phone is lost. yes, that old old useless phone.
i wasnt quite anxious to recover that phone, for i would rather be it an excuse for my to purchase a new phone. the only thing that worries me is that all my phone numbers would be lost.
but to my amazement, i managed to recover my phone at the control counter. wow... i didnt realise that singaporeans can be that honest until today. or was it that my phone is so worthless that the one who found it despised it? who knows.

after that, we left dolby ghout by train and went back to Ang Mo Kio. we had our dinner at the S11. The Dining area was packed as usual, with all the tables occupied. we saw a folded talbe at the corner, so we took the initiative to carry out the table and set up our own table at a side.

we decided to share food, so Zhi Kai, Dean and i went to order food for the whole group. Zhi Kai ordered oyster omelette and indian rojak, Dean ordered fried rice, mee go reng and carrot cake, and i ordered prawn mee and fish soup. all the food are in large portions so we all can share. oh.. and not forgetting our drinks, passion fruit drink. awww... it was a sumptious meal.

yeah... bwc will forever be united. best friends forever, and not forgetting our catch-phrase " wadeva lor".

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also, went out with Jian qing and yao dong last sat to study. it was a warm afternoon, and we had our meal not too long before, so we couldnt help dozing off during our supposed study time haha.

we decided to end our study after dinner. we went to Raiders the cyber net to play a game of dota. Raiders is sooooo cool la... the place used to be a cinema hall, but Raiders took over the place and renovated it into a lan shop. so its like, u play lan in a cinema, with every computer at every seat in rows. cool right?

we played 2 rounds, with us 3 vs 3 strangers. haha we pawned them again. they all very jian lor... 1st round they all played melee attackers, but luckily i used DR to counter them and aid our attackers. after they lost, they asked for a rematch. this time they changed to all ranged attackers will slow skills. so jian... but anyway we won the 2nd round again.

looking forwards to our next study trip, which is most probaly next sat lol haha

my national day wish is to gain weight to at least 65kg before the next national day.
i dont want to be skinny all my life, common god is unfair right?

why some people can like... put on 5kg by just drinking a cup of water, yet for me i cant accumulate any fats after dumping 2 plates of fattening chicken rice a meal.

i tried hard, really hard!!! i put in much more efforts to put on weight than those who struggle to lose weight!!! if they can lose weight, why cant i gain weight???

god is unfair right? that stupid spastic old man who refuses to show me sympathy and grant me my tiny little wish.

the conclusion is: god is never reliable. he is inconsistant, unpredictable, and has no principle of life!!! retarded silly old hag.

i should depend on myself if i ever want to see my double chins!!! isnt it cool? me having double chins? or pot belly? or cellulites on my thighs? cool right?

its a mission-impossible. ( whether u had agreed or disagreed, u r stupid, because it will never happen. i fooled u, u kuku ass... )

for now, what i can do to get myself near my goal, is to eat more fatty food, and continue to pray to that silly old man, hoping that one day he will take pity of me, and give me that satisfying clock-wise tick on that worn-out weighing machine meter hand.

im proud to be me, yet hate to look like me.

what more can i say? jay rox

promotional exams are only 48 days away.

i need to find motivation to study, intensive deep explorative mugging, not just doing homework.
i need to find a buddy to study with, studying alone is never efficient.

now im rotting in the comp lab. my next lesson is 6-7pm, econs.

im going out tml with bwc, destination to be decided on the day itself, which is tml!!!
i need to get a hair cut, its quite long already, too long for me to style.
after econs, im going to get a hair cut.

i worry for my "tail"!!! im gonna get caught for it sooner or later, just a matter of time.
but heck care, i like it

i love to study, i will

im so not ready for my promo exams which is due in less than 2 months time.

how shall i evade admitting that i put too much of my time into dota instead of revising my studies.
undisciplined and procrastinating, im dragged deep under into the abyss of fear, that i may not pass my promos again this year.
i shall not remind myself of the deadly outcome if that ever happens.

should i go for the night study programmes?

i dislike some fat ppl.