it's winter in China now. the weather is so damn cold. today's temperature is 10 degree celsius. freezing cold!!! my fingers are getting numb due to the coldness. the air here is very hazy due to the under-regulated air pollution from nearby factories.
the weather here is dry, really dry. my hand and face skin have cracked as a result exposure to the coldness and dryness. lucky that i have brought a stick of lip mosturiser here which saved my lips. my nose is bleeding too. every breath i take in sends a chill down my nostril to my air pipe into my lungs.
i miss my dear. we have been separated since my departure. i cant wait for our reunion when i return to singapore.
away...
im not good enough for you.
i think im placing too much hope into this relationship. i have been trying all that i could to keep my love one, by my side, who doesnt seem interested to settle down with me. i have always been having this fear that this is all just a game to the one hosting it. im all prepared to lose you anytime. it is just a question of when you are going to initiate a break up, most probably after i come back from my vacation trip?
i could simply cancel my trip in order to salvage our relationship, you are definitely more important to me than my relatives and the money loss from the cancellation of the air tickets. but frankly speaking, what can i do now? occupy you time so that i could postpone our break up? there is nothing i can do to keep a heart that has no place for me.
it feels lousy being an abandoned toy. am i one? why ain't you satisfied with me? im willing to give you everything i have. but you desire beyond that. im just not good enough for you.
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