One word to describe me: cold
im not unfeeling, i just dont verbalise my feelings. i do show my emotions, through facial expressions and body gestures just like any other normal human beings. what is different about me is that i dont say it out through my mouth. so if you think that im kinda out of reach and distant, then i would say that its you who is not observant or you just dont care.
im not arrogant, im just lazy to squeeze my brain juice when im out of topics to continue the conversation. that is when silence falls in and you start to feel awkward. ppl are afraid of silence, it makes them feel uncomfortable. strangely, they will feel at ease whenthe air is filled with some voices, even when the topic of conversation is rather dry and meaningless. they dont mind engaging in a unproductive conversation as long a communication link is forged, they will feel peace at heart. to me, its sort of silly. when i have nothing interesting to say, i prefer to be embraced by silence... ho ho ho...
im not anti-social, i do have my regular groups to hang out with. but im not like those who easily crumble under boredom or loneliness and therefore make numerous friends as backup candidates for their lonesome dates. i dont easily make friends, but those whom i regard as friends will last for a long long time, no guarantee forever though, bleahz... i dont want to have a whole list of aquintnce labelled as friends when i dont actually know a single stuff about them.